Conscious Decisions

I’ve mentioned in previous posts that I’ve finally gotten to the point where I don’t feel guilty about the foods that I eat regardless of how healthy they are. Today, I made the decision to end my Whole30 at a Whole21, and I don’t feel even a little guilty.

There are several reasons I decided to end it early, but the biggest is that in January I’m planning to do a Whole(?). I am going to do the Whole30, but then I’m going to extend it until I really feel that “tiger blood” they talk about on the Whole30 website. I haven’t really felt that yet. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve felt pretty good, but I still have the stomach issues along with a few other things I’m hoping to get rid of.

The stomach issues are another reason I decided to end my Whole30 a week early. I was feeling a bit nauseous around lunchtime, and all I had was pot roast which didn’t sound remotely appealing. When my stomach gets like that, I usually need some kind of carbs and very little fiber to settle it. If I had potatoes or another starchy veggie, that would have worked, but I didn’t have that either, so I opted for a sandwich instead. I thought about it for a solid 15 minutes weighing the pros and cons, and ultimately decided that it was ok to go off plan a little early.

Another reason I decided to end it? Next week is my birthday, and I want cake! 🙂 I had planned to just wait until the Friday after my birthday and have a cupcake, but I know there will be other treats from friends and coworkers during the week that I want to be able to enjoy. I actually really enjoy my birthday, and it only comes around once a year, so I want to be able to enjoy it! I’m not planning to go crazy, but I’m going to let myself have a treat here and there if it seems worth it to me.

I was considering ending it last night already actually. I was really craving pizza or a sub, but I thought about it, and neither of those items were special, and ultimately they weren’t worth it. I guess the sandwich today wasn’t really special either, but it was worth it because it helped settle my stomach. Last night I ended up ordering a salad instead, and it was sooooo good! I did a build your own salad from a local pizza place, and I did Romaine lettuce with cucumbers, carrots, onions, black olives, banana peppers, and green peppers topped with chicken and my own oil and vinegar dressing. Mmmm! It really hit the spot.

As an added bonus, when I was ordering, my debit card got declined, so I went online to check my balance, and it turns out someone had gotten hold of my information and charged $100 to some scammy looking crowdfunding project for a zombie apocalypse compound. I’m not going to list the site here because they don’t deserve any more traffic in case they’re the ones that stole my info. I ended up having to call my bank and cancel my card. Hopefully it was just the card they got and not the whole account! They’re looking into my claim, but hopefully they’ll realize that I didn’t invest in that project, and I’ll get my money back. Why can’t people just keep their hands off of what isn’t theirs?

Some other (definitely better!) excitement that I’ve had recently is that I won the first round of my 6 month diet bet! I really stalled out at the end there, so I think round 2 is going to be really tight, but I think I’ll make it. I’m going to try my hardest to make it, actually! I’ve already amped up my efforts by starting a new Pilates program from blogilates.com. If you’re interested in Pilates, I recommend visiting her site. The videos are all super quick, but you can combine them to get a longer workout if you want. You may not need to though because her videos are challenging! I’m working on her beginner calendar right now, and it is tough! I’ve been sore for the last 5 days (I started 5 days ago!), but I can definitely tell it’s working!

Well, that’s all I’ve got for you for today! I am in for a fun-filled weekend, and I can’t wait! I’m spending the weekend with the bf which is always a nice time, and tomorrow night my best girlfriends are meeting my bf. I can’t wait! We’re all going out for dinner and then to a hockey game, so it should be a really great night. 🙂

Have a great weekend!

Going Strong

Life has been pretty calm and uneventful the last few days, so I just haven’t had much to write about. I mentioned in previous posts that I just finished my first Diet Bet, and guess what… I was a winner! 🙂 That was pretty exciting. I was super nervous for the weigh in because I knew it was going to be pretty close, but I was actually 1 lb under my goal! The buy in was $30, and I won $51 and some change, so I made a profit of $21. I think I’m going to spend that on some new clothes for myself. 😉

I had an excellent Thanksgiving, and I hope you did as well! My family and my bf met for the first time, and things went really well, so that was really exciting. We found out that my mom’s cancer is in remission, so that was definitely something to be thankful for! I also stuck to my plan as far as the feasting. I stayed Whole30 compliant and only ate until I was satisfied. It was great not walking around feeling uncomfortably full all day. I loaded up with my healthy veggie sides and had a little bit of ham and turkey. I completely forgot to take a picture of it, but it was delicious and filling. I really didn’t feel like I was missing out on anything. The stuffing and rolls were calling my name, but I knew it wasn’t going to be worth breaking my streak to have them. There will always be Stovetop and heat and serve rolls.

My second Whole30 has been going along swimmingly. I did cave a little bit this past weekend and had a small handful of glazed nuts. I was super hungry and didn’t really have much else to eat, so I made the conscious decision to have some, and I don’t feel guilty about it. It was just food, and I did really think about it before I had some. The only unhealthy ingredient was sugar, and as I’ve said in previous posts that I haven’t been super strict with myself on the sugar this go around because I don’t feel like I’m going to go on a sugar binge anymore by just having a little taste. I feel much more in control.

An article was just posted by Whole30 on Facebook about how one of the biggest things people gain from Whole30 is food freedom. This is definitely true for me. For years I struggled with the pattern of cutting out “bad foods” completely from my diet and trying to “be good” by not eating them. Inevitably a craving I just couldn’t resist would pop up, and I’d cave. I’d then feel really guilty about it and say, “Well, I’ve already blown it. I might as well just keep eating junk!”

I’m now working with the mindset that food in itself is neither bad nor good. All foods are just food. It’s certainly true that some foods are less healthy than others and can have negative consequences on the body, but with the right mindset, even these foods can be ok every now and then. I feel the freedom to think about a certain food that may not be the healthiest and consider whether eating that food is worth it or not. Sometimes it is (gooey chocolate caramel cake!), and sometimes it isn’t (cheap chocolate), but it is my decision to make. If I really think about my decision and come to the conclusion that something is worth it, then I don’t beat myself up about it anymore. I don’t feel like a failure. In fact, I feel that much more empowered because I really thought it through before just mindlessly popping something in my mouth.

I haven’t really had anything super exciting to eat lately because it’s been turkey leftovers for almost 3 meals a day. It’s great because I don’t have to buy food, but it’s really not anything worth noting. I did find these delicious Whole30 compliant sausages at Target this weekend, though! They are Aidells brand, and they were super yummy! Nothing but chicken, apples, spices, and fruit juices for flavor. I will definitely be buying them again!


If you’ve read my about me section, then you know I have the BRCA2 genetic mutation that puts me at high risk for breast cancer. Well I got the ball rolling last month as far as my preventive screenings, and the whole thing has really just been kind of a nightmare. After speaking with the genetic counselor, I felt very good about the direction I needed to go, and I was pretty at ease with everything. Then once I started actually making the appointments, it became clear that even those in the medical field aren’t that well versed on what it actually is and how to handle it. I have been having to explain to every doctor I see exactly what it is and tell them what the course of action is.

It’s really frustrating to have to re-explain everything all the time, and it’s even more frustrating when different people are telling me different things. Long story short, I had my MRI today, but not before there was a lot of confusion about whether I had to have a mammogram first or not. I actually had to come in an hour earlier for my appointment to get squeezed in for the mammogram and ended up not needing it. I was very thankful for the nurse in the breast center who really seemed to know what she was doing because it saved me quite a bit of headache.

As for the MRI itself, it was really no big deal. It took about half an hour, and I was out of there. The MRI techs were really nice and helpful and made something that was not really all that pleasant an OK experience. They explained everything they were doing and just made me feel very comfortable. I started my day off feeling annoyed and frustrated with the whole thing, and now I’m back to a place of feeling OK with everything again. I won’t get the results from my MRI for a couple days, but I’m really not worried about it. I’ve been diligent with my self exams, and I haven’t felt anything abnormal, so I’m guessing I’ll be free and clear. 🙂

Have a happy Tuesday!