Taking Control Part II

As I mentioned in my previous post, I had a bit of a hard time over the last several weeks. I had pretty bad general anxiety and depressed feelings to the point where I didn’t want to do anything or even leave my house. I felt like everything was out of control, and the way I was dealing with it was by not dealing with it. Finally I just told myself enough was enough and did just one thing. That one thing led to another thing which led to another thing, and so on, to the point where today I feel almost 100% better.

Last time I talked about how I put my house in order to help myself feel like I was more in control, and this time, I’ll talk about my diet and exercise regimen.

Even though I started off the year with the best of intentions and some pretty strong motivation, life happened, and I slipped up. Being gone for about half of the month of January certainly didn’t help. I mentioned in my Vegas recap that I did pretty good sticking to my goals, but I ended up not losing any weight which was really frustrating to me. By the time my second trip rolled around, I decided that I didn’t care, and I was going to enjoy my dinners out and not deprive myself. Well, I’m sure you’ll be shocked to find out that I gained even more weight after that trip… That led to even more out of control eating which led to feeling like crap which led to me skipping my workouts.

As with tidying up, I finally said enough was enough. I was eating way too much junk and being very lazy, so I convinced my boyfriend to start a Whole30 with me! We are currently on day 16 and going really strong! I’m actually completely following the rules this time-no excuses! I’m also trying to do it relatively low carb by not indulging in too much fruit or potatoes, and I feel awesome! I have quite a bit of energy, my cravings are nearly non-existent (aside from when I actually see something and have that momentary desire to eat/drink it), and my stomach issues have pretty well subsided! It always amazes me when I build something up in my head so much, and as soon as I’m through the hard part at the beginning, it almost becomes easy.

Steak with roasted garlic aioli, smashed red potatoes with ghee, and garlic roasted asparagus.

This has been one of my favorite meals so far. It was so decadent, but completely Whole30 compliant! Steak with roasted garlic aioli, smashed red potatoes with ghee, and garlic roasted asparagus.

Honestly I was really hesitant to share my Whole30 this time until I was finished because of how many times I tried and failed. I know on my last attempt at a Whole30, I said I really felt like I was going to make it the whole 30 days but ended up only making it about 20, but this time, now that I have my boyfriend for support, and I’m actually following the rules completely, I know I’m going to make it the full 30 days. I’ve even been toying with the idea of doing a slow roll reintroduction instead of trying to reintroduce everything right away. We’ll see though.

It is so nice having my boyfriend for support on this one. It’s great to know that I’m not the only one who’s going through the challenge, and it’s nice to have someone I know I can text or call when I am getting frustrated. Another thing that has really helped is that we’ve been preparing all of our meals for the week together on Sunday. The bf has even suggested some recipes that I never would have thought to try but ended up being delicious!

On the same day I started my Whole30, I got back into my daily morning workouts. My coworker and I have been getting to work an hour early every morning to utilize one of our large conference rooms to play a workout video from YouTube. Our favorite for the past couple weeks has been Winsor Pilates 20 minute workout. It has been perfect to get ourselves back into the swing of things. It’s easy enough that we want to keep doing it, but challenging enough that it’s actually doing something. I have a goal of working out every day during the week, and so far, I’ve only missed one of my last 12 workouts because of health reasons.

I’m finally getting to the point where it’s easy to get up in the morning to get my workout in. I don’t allow myself to make excuses, and I’m even starting to enjoy making that the start of my day. It’s energizing, and it gets me through the morning, so I don’t even need caffeine anymore!

To really give myself a kick in the pants, on March 1, I’m starting the 30 Day Pilates Body Challenge. It’s a free challenge from Robin Long at The Balanced Life Online where every day you’ll get an email first thing in the morning with a 10 minute Pilates video. You do the workout and check in via social media to say you did it, and that’s it! I’m planning on doing this on top of my work day workouts just as an added challenge. This means getting up even earlier to get it in, but I’m up for the challenge! If you’ve been looking for a way to kick start your workouts, I think this would be a great way to get started. You can follow me on Instagram @simply_whole_life where I’ll be checking in if you want to be part of my accountability circle or just to keep up with my progress (and maybe pass along some words of encouragement? 🙂 ).

30 Day Pilates Body Challenge, 10 Minute Pilates

I’m in, are you!?

Finally, I just had to share this picture. I’m at my parents’ house doing laundry and working on my blog while the machines are running, and when I came back from switching loads, I had a new little writing buddy! 🙂

Mordecai cat writing blog stealing chair

Meet my new writing assistant, Sauron Weasley. (Or as he’s formally known, Mordecai. 🙂 )

Tidying Up and Taking Control

Alright, so first off, I know it has been quite a while since my last post. Forgive me, please? I have been dealing with some stuff that I just didn’t want to blog about. My eating went back to crap, and I stopped working out for a while. Every week felt like the same old, same old, and I didn’t feel like writing about it, and I’m sure you wouldn’t have wanted to read it.

I’ve always been a bit of a worrier. I worry about a lot of things. I get these weird moments when I’m convinced that something bad is going to happen to someone I love or my dog. Usually I can recognize these silly fears and work through them by convincing myself that really there’s a very small chance of my dog escaping from the house while I’m at work and being lost forever. (When I’m not home, he’s kenneled, or more often, I take him by my parents to watch him while I’m at work.)

For much of the end of January and the beginning of February, however, I had general anxiety that wasn’t about any one particular thing. It was just this panicky feeling that wouldn’t go away. Mixed in with that, I had a general feeling of malaise. I’d call it a depression, but it really only lasted for a couple weeks, so I don’t feel like it was a true depression. I felt like things were really out of control, and I just shut down. I would go to work (though there was one day that I just couldn’t make myself go, so I called in sick), and I would come home and veg until it was time to go to sleep.

I recognized the whole time that this was not normal behavior, but I just felt like I didn’t know what to do. I knew that if I could just get one thing in order, the rest usually followed, but when you feel so down, getting yourself to do just one thing is a huge challenge. One day I finally convinced myself that enough was enough. I didn’t have to do everything in one day, but I had to do something, so I got up and did one thing. I cleaned my kitchen. I felt so much better to have a clean kitchen that the next day I did one more thing, and so on, and so on.

During this time, I also read The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up by Marie Kondo, and it really gave me the motivation to get things into gear. I’ve always felt like I had too much stuff that I just didn’t want or need. It was stuff that I had to keep tidy and find a place for, so just seeing it made me feel stressful. I felt like my house was always messy because I didn’t even know what to do with half of it.

Last weekend, I finally found the time and energy to just completely clean house. I went through all my clothes and got rid of a bunch. I looked at each piece and honestly asked myself if I needed it or wanted it, or if it even fit me properly and made me look good, and if the answer was no, it got tossed. I repeated this same method for every room and everything in my house. After all was said and done, I had 6 garbage bags and 3 bins full of stuff I was either tossing, donating, or selling.

Cleaning House KonMari Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up

This is all the stuff I got rid of. I think the picture makes it look like less than it actually was.

You would not believe how much better I feel having gotten rid of so much junk. In the book, she says you should open your closet and feel happy, and I thought it was crazy, but now I do! I do that with my whole house! I come home, and I’m happy to be there. Instead of thinking about all the cleaning I have to do when I get home, I get home, and it’s already clean! (For the most part anyway… we did a whole bunch of cooking on Sunday, and I have to get all the dishes clean from that yet. With a small dishwasher, you can only do so many!)

One of my goals with KonMari-ing my house was to clear off my desk to create a workspace, so I can get serious on my blogging and a few other projects I have going on. My desk is now clean, and I came up with a schedule for myself, so hopefully I’ll be blogging a little more frequently. 🙂

I have taken a couple other steps to get my life back in order, but this post is so long, I’ll save that for next time!

Do you ever get feeling down or like your life is out of control? How do you handle it?